From This Place

Last night I thought about a few things. The first being where do I go from here? From this place in my life? This place in my life meaning the start of my junior year, being so close to graduating. What about my family and friends? Would I leave them to pursuit a new life? One where I could begin the foundation to my career? I once thought that I would leave this little place for the big cities, somewhere so far away that I knew no one to throw old mistakes in my face. I'm starting to find things are not as they had once appeared. How can one single night of thinking completely change your sight of life? My life wasn't as shaky as I'd always thought it to be. I have friends, I have family that care about me. (Even if they do pretend not to sometimes.) I think the one thing that has always bothered me was the thought of never leaving high school completely behind. Feeling as if everyday I would wake up to the same people, and nothing would be new.

I would like a change of scene, I would like a place to myself. Somewhere that I could write and do the things I loved without being bothered with the usual drama you get at home, at school, and even at church. Yes my church means the world to me but I need a place to praise the Lord. I feel like the closest you can get to the Lord is when you praise him, and now it seems church is more of a place for drama then it is praise. Not all churches, but a lot of them. Schools are getting to where all we come for is fights and gossip. Try spending time with your friends without getting one or the other.

So from this place in my life I'd like to finish the dramatic high school years I have left and go to Culinary Arts school, maybe take a few writing classes, write a book or two, and make the fullest of my life. Spend time with those close to me, and who knows I might even find a decent guy along this crazy ride of a life. My dreams are mine and mine alone, I won't let anyone keep me from them now I realize how much they mean to me.


Micheala